Cameron was an amazing little girl who died on January 19, 2006. She was truly one of the most precious people to ever walk this earth. As her parents, we will never be able to express the loss we feel now that Cameron is gone. Kennedy
Today I took Kennedy for a bike ride. It was the first time she really rode without training wheels. I have been a little embarrassed that my 7 1/2 year old can’t ride a bike. But, truthfully, I am just happy she can cross the street. When we first moved here, she was scared to ride the barbie car in our cul-de-sac. She and I both had this fear of streets, of cars coming around the corner, of the worst happening. It has been such an adjustment for both of us to realize that the car might stop. Whenever any of them get near the street, my heart just stops. It’s like, they step in the street and its all over. But usually the car stops. Usually the driver is paying attention, aware of his surroundings. Nobody wants to run over a child in the street. So more than likely, we will be okay.
So I praised my daughter today for riding that bike on the sidewalk. And then we went for a walk around the block. And she let go of my hand, and looked both ways, and crossed the street. And she made it across. I know one day I will have to let go, and let my kids grow up. They will go places without me, and I may not always know exactly where they are. And, more than likely, they will be okay.
And that’s just some of the simple things we do to keep moving forward. It isn’t easy, but we are all surviving. We can’t changed what happened to Cameron, and we know its not our fault. But we will not let it paralyze us. We are brave enough to look both ways, then cross the street.
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