Today is Cameron’s birthday. She is not here to celebrate it. She was born in the year 2000, so it is always easy to remember how old she would have been. 9 this year. Wow. A 9 year old. That sounds so old.
The last birthday party we got to celebrate with Cameron was a princess party. All her little friends came over dressed as their favorite princesses. We had little Snowwhites and Cinderellas, Tinkerbelles, and Sleeping Beauties! They were all so precious. Cameron would not wear her princess costume. In fact, we had several and she wouldn’t wear any of them. She said they all itched. I was irritated with her. Here we had all these little princesses and she was supposed to be the head princess, but she wouldn’t dress the part. She wore her Easter dress– pink and frilly. She was my little princess, anyway!
Today, I don’t know what kind of party she would want. It is a beautiful day. The weather always cooperated for us on Cam’s bdays. She was always happy, and appreciative. I wish she were here. I miss her…
Today we will plant our little garden outback. My parents are coming over to help. I’ve got to take Kennedy and Brooklynn to dance recital practice first. And then we’ll get started. It won’t look like much at first because the tree and plants I ordered are dormant. That means that don’t really look like plants and trees right now, but should in a few months. This is a new experience for me, so we’ll see. Keep your fingers crossed that it turns out!
We’ll be sending balloons to Cameron at sunset. It’s the only way I know to send her anything that seems to head in the right direction. She is my little angel now. God has her. I ache for her. I love my baby. Happy Birthday in Heaven.
Love, Mama