May is a special and difficult month for our family. It is Cameron’s birth month. May 13 is the day she was born. It was actually the day before Mother’s Day and her first birthday was on Mother’s Day. You know, losing a child does not take away from the fact that you are a mother. I remember after Cameron died, I struggled with the question “How many children do you have?” I always wanted to say three, but I didn’t want to have to explain it or make the person feel awful for asking a standard question. I felt guilty saying two, like Cameron somehow didn’t count. Then I had Carington. I was able to answer 3 again, but it still didn’t feel quite right. I never had four children at one time, but I did have four babies. And I am still the mother of four girls. Losing a child just makes everything more difficult, even the simplest of questions.
I remember thinking how hard it would be if Cameron had been my only child. Not that it wasn’t impossible to begin with, but really, what would you say? You have an empty nest, you ache for your child, and you struggle with the issue of whether or not you really are even still a mother. That sounds unbearable, unimaginable. Yet, I know there are some mothers out there who struggle with this pain.
To those mothers I will say, “You are a mother, still. You are a mother yesterday, today, tomorrow, and always. You have a beautiful child and she is looking after you now. She is waiting for you. You must have hope, you must have faith. You must hold your head up high. You did a good job. And you loved your baby well. You didn’t deserve to lose your child. But you do deserve to be happy and whole. God loves you.”

We are headed to McAlester on Friday to celebrate Cameron’s life. We are also planning to plant a tree and flower garden on her birthday. Finally, Derrick and his friends are celebrating the 4th annual Cameron Averitt Bobbitt Memorial Golf Tournament. Thanks Guys!

Remember to send books or support the Cameron Bobbitt Memorial Fund. It is a great way to show your love for Cameron, and for us. It is a great way to help children. And you can even honor your mom in giving!