I am always more apt to post on a bad day than a good one.  Writing is therapeutic for me, but it may seem to visitors on the site that I am in desperate shape.  I appreciate all the support and positive comments from my friends, family and former patients.  It is so meaningful for me to receive messages from parents of children I helped in some small way.  I know that occasionally I helped in some large way, and I am thankful to be a part of peoples lives in that way.

Today was a good day.  I was off from work today, so I didn’t have nearly as much anxiety as usual.  I was able to get the kids to school and spend lots of time with my baby and my husband.  I rested, read books, ran errands, and took a long walk.  After dinner the whole family played outside in the finally warmer weather.  It felt normal.  It felt nice.  And I felt okay– not guilty or sad or mad or depressed.  That’s truly an accomplishment for me!

I hope that all my friends in McAlester are doing well.  I miss being there this time of year.  We had the best yard ever in McAlester.  We were kind of on a hill, and we could see across the interstate to the golf course and club house.  Everynight we had a beautiful sunset.  I can’t tell you how awesome those sunsets were.  And we had families of deer that waltzed through our yard almost everyday.  They would stop to eat the corn we left outside.  Sometimes they would stay for 15 to 30 minutes.  We often saw a couple of fawns in the early summer and we would watch them grow and change throughout the year. 

I appreciate the book drive being headed up by Mrs. Horton at Jefferson.  It’s great to know that Cameron is still thought of, missed and loved.  She was a true inspiration to so many, and with your help we can keep that flame alive.  On behalf of Cameron and all of us, I thank you!!!!