When I remember you, it seems like forever.  I remember your smile and laugh.  I remember how you used to look at me.  I still can’t look at your picture much.  And I still can’t watch the home movies that we used to make.  We took a dozen hours of you just dancing with your sister. 

When I remember you, I may smile to myself.  If only for a moment, I feel happy and proud.  But when I remember you, its not the same as it once was.  Most people just don’t understand.  I always have my memories, but they cut me like a knife every time.

When I remember you, I hate to say it but its true.  I can’t stop the pages of my mind from turning back to that dreadful day.  If I could have held you, if I could have talked to you one last time– would it still be so painful to look back on my memories ?

Someday I feel in my heart that I will see you again.  I will remember your face, and you will remember me.  Until the day that I die, I’ll love and miss you everyday.  Please know I long for a time, when all the pain goes away.  And I can tell you mother to child– I lived the rest of my life to remember you.

We want to say a special thanks to the donors of the Cameron Bobbitt Memorial Fund.  They are listed below:

Bill Bobbitt

Evie Fithen

Christine Fortson

Amy and Evans McBride

Chris and Catherine Averitt

Melvin Huffman

Jack and Nancy Hoover

The Kurvinks

The Burlesons

Pat Hand

Mrs. Schulte

Allen and Norma Walker

Annette Bobbitt

Kim and Marty House

The Wilson Class at Asbury Methodist

Harry and Norma Galusha

William and Katherine Kincaid

Mary Jean and Dennis Creech

Chris and Allison Tanner

Greg and Maggie Langston

Warren Clinic McAlester Foundation

A special thanks to Rob and Diane Page

A special thanks to Eric and Ashlie Ardoin. 

Thanks to all who donated, it means a lot to both of us that we have people who care.

 Derrick and Susan, proud parents of Cameron Averitt Bobbitt.

Below is the current list of organizations that have recently received books from Cameron’s Amazing Book Club.  Please keep those books coming.  We have gotten lots of positive responses from those who have received our donations.  We know Cameron would be proud of the good that is being done in her name!  Thanks, Derrick.

Vista Health (Fayetteville and Bentonville)

Benton County Sunshine School

Benton County Women’s Shelter

Big Brothers Big Sisters of NWA

Washington County Juvenile Court

Kaleidoscope Learning Academy

Rainbow Pediatrics

Elizabeth Richardson Center

EOA Children’s House in Fayetteville

NW Arkansas Children’s Shelter

Helen R. Walton Children’s Center

Kids First in Fort Smith

Crisis Center for Women in Fort Smith

Children’s World-FUMC in Springdale

Siloam Springs Children’s Center

Donald W. Reynolds Boys and Girls Club in Fayetteville.

I just want to say how much I miss my beautiful blue-eyed girl.  I am so pleased to do good things in her name, but I really just wish she were here with me.  A mother just never gets used to the idea that her baby is gone.  I still can’t believe it sometimes.  No matter how real it seems or how often I feel it, it is still so hard to believe that she is gone.  Please remember Cameron, her beautiful smile, her charm.  Remember how caring and sweet she was, how smart and talented!  Love your babies.  Don’t forget to spend every moment you can making them feel loved and special.  I didn’t know that Cameron would be gone so fast.  But I am proud to say that I loved her well.  She never felt alone or without the absolute security of knowing that she was truly loved.  Cameron, I miss you.  I love you.  Mama

We are so pleased that the Cameron Bobbitt Memorial Fund is now endowed!  What does that mean?  It means that we have received an amount of contributions that has taken our fund to endowment status.  We have to have a minimum of $10,000 in the fund in order to be endowed.  Now that we are endowed, we can begin making charitable contributions to organizations that support children and families.  We will only make donations from the earnings, so the principal amount will be reinvested to earn more money.  As the fund grows over the years, so will the amount of money we can donate to others in Cameron’s name.  We owe a great debt of gratitude to all those who have contributed so far.  Please remember the Cameron Bobbitt Memorial Fund when you consider charitable giving.  Your gift is tax deductible and goes to help children in need.  You can give by sending a check to the Fayetteville Community Foundation (Cameron Bobbitt Memorial Fund)/P.O. Box 997/Fayetteville, AR/72702

This is one I wrote for Derrick.  My sister-in-law helped me have it framed and it is on our mantle downstairs.  It looks really beautiful.  Happy father’s day to all the dads.  Love,  Susan

 From Daddy. with Love

Hello, My dear sweet angel child.

How I long to see your face,

To hold you in my arms,

and tell you how much I love you.

You were the one who made my life whole.

You were my first born, my blue-eyed girl.

I learned so much from you.

You made me proud– every day.

Thank you for teaching my how to be a Daddy.

Thank you for your love, your hugs and kisses.

Thank you for being such a wonderful big sister.

Thank you for being your mama’s big girl.

I never thought that I could live without you.

I never imagined that I would have to.

Sometimes I don’t feel like I want to live.

But your sisters are still here, and they need me.

I close my eyes at night to try and see you.

I have trouble sleeping and wake up missing you.

You will never ever be forgotten.

I have to keep going, but I’ll never be the same.

I’ve asked God to send me a sign that you are with Him.

I haven’t heard from Him yet.

But I’ll keep reaching and trying to find you.

Save me a place at Heaven’s Gate.

Good night for now my beautiful girl.

I will never say good-bye to you.

You’ll live in my heart and soul forever.

I miss you, I love you, I’m your Daddy– forever.

I want everyone to know that Derrick has worked very hard this past week to send out books.  Every time I come home he is on the phone or has a new stack of books ready to send.  He has sent to children’s shelters, child care centers, juvenile detention centers, and clinics.  I am going to have to make him enter a list of all the places he has sent or delivered books.  I am so proud and I think he is really getting in to this!  Keep the books coming so he can stay busy.  Cameron would be pleased with her Daddy!  Love, Susan

Please check out the forums.  I have started journalling thoughts there.  If you are a bereaved parent maybe you could share some thoughts.  Susan