Cameron was an amazing little girl who died on January 19, 2006. She was truly one of the most precious people to ever walk this earth. As her parents, we will never be able to express the loss we feel now that Cameron is gone. May 2007
I am anticipating May with a sense of sadness. May is Cameron’s birth month. Cameron was born on May 13, 2000. This year, May 13 falls on Mother’s Day. Our family will be traveling to McAlester, OK to see old friends. On the birthday, we will get together and lauch balloons to our little angel. The following day we will go to the school Cameron attended (and location of her death) to see a new walking trail. There is an area next to the trail with a bench, flowers, rock and plaque in memory of Cameron. I have made a stepping stone to put next to the trail. Then we will go to the Warren Clinic where I worked to see the tulip tree planted there for Cameron last year. I heard it survived the ice storm. Please pray for our strength during this difficult time. Just thinking about a trip back to McAlester and especially to her school causes me stress. It is something that I want to do, yet hate to do at the same time.
Many people ask me how I am doing. I will tell you, everyday is a challenge. I cry in the car a lot. I listen to Christian music. I try to pray. I spend time with my family. I work, sleep, and go throught the daily motions of life. My beautiful girls keep me going, but one of them is forever gone. Living without Cameron is the hardest thing I have ever done. All things considered, I feel I am doing the best I can. Thanks and take care– Susan
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May 1st, 2007 at 7:26 am
I have been thinking about Cameron’s birthday a lot too. When it’s time for Graham’s birthday then it’s always time for Cameron’s. I am sick that we can’t celebrate those together like we used to. But we do still celebrate her birth and we always will. There’s so much to celebrate when it comes to Cameron. We sure miss the way she always had something fun for everyone to do. She taught us lots of new songs. She always had an idea for a game to play. She was an amazing little artist. I was always a little jealous that Graham couldn’t draw like she could. Now I wish I had never had that stupid feeling. I will never forget all the dress-up that went on at my house at Christmas. I wish I could see her walk in my den in a little crown and pink frilly dress. I will be thinking of you every day but especially on May 13. I hope this Mother’s Day is a happy one. Happy Birthday Cameron!
May 3rd, 2007 at 4:58 pm
We all miss our little Cam”C”. We will always remember her happiness and special smile and wonderful accomplishments. She was just amazing. We will never forget her. Susan and Derrick, you know we love you and we think about you everyday. You and Derrick are who gave Cameron all of her wonderful traits and abilities. It was because of you she was who she was. I want you to know that you are wonderful parents, and YOU are also amazing. We pray for you everyday! You will see your Cam”C” again!!!
May 5th, 2007 at 9:58 am
Susan,
This tradgety has brought us all grief. Yet I am glad to hear you are coming up to see us. I miss you terribly. You, Derrick, Kennedy, and Brooklyn. I can’t wait to meet the new addition!
Cameron was a very special girl, much like a sister to me. But I can’t comprehend the pain you go through, day after day. You and your family are always in my prayers.
I came across this site randomly. I googled her name, and found this. She’s famous!
Yesterday I had a breakdown, because I missed her so. Mrs. Curry just told me to remember all of the good things about Cameron, probably a too easy task to accomplish. She was very special to everyone that met her. I will never forget her as my “little sister”.
I love you lots. Please give me a call or something!
Lots of love
xoxo
Lizzy Hayes
May 6th, 2007 at 10:00 am
There isn’t a day go by that I don’t think about what happened that day and wonder how you and your family are doing. I struggle very much with what I saw that day and cannot imagine what you must go through just to get through each day. I came across some pictures that I thought you might like to have, but have hesitated dropping them in the mail. I believe that Evan and Cameron had Red Cross swim lessons together when they were about 4 years old and I have pictures that I took and would like for you to have them. I also have a few pictures from last school year for you. We are expecting our second son in August. After 4 years, we had given up hope that we would have another child and I truly believe that your little girl had something to do with sending us this miracle. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Theresa, Jimmy and Evan Canant
May 11th, 2007 at 10:48 am
Dear Susan,
Seven years ago I had the best Mother’s Day ever. My sweet Cameron was born. What a wonderful day! Hers was the first birth I had ever witnessed. Since I had also seen her under the microscope before she was inside you, I felt as if I already knew her. I miss her terribly, but nothing can take away the joy she gave me. May this be a good Mother’s Day for you. You are every mother: a grieving mother, a new mother, and a mother of loving, healthy daughters. I love you. Mom
May 13th, 2007 at 10:30 pm
Susan and Derrick,
I can’t imagine how hard this, and every May going forward, is for you. I wish I could be with you personally, but I know you have a lot of friends and family to support you locally. Although I didn’t get to spend too much time with Cameron due to our addresses, I sure do love and miss her dearly. I think about her, and your family, at least once a day and I dream about Cameron often.
I commend you for being such strong people and I know that your strength can help others too.
I love and miss you all very much,
Carrie
May 14th, 2007 at 2:21 pm
I found this website today on the internet, and was totally in awe with what you and your husband has done in honor of your daughter. You were my son’s pediatrician when you lived in Sherwood, and probably the person my husband and I trusted the most. The day before we heard of your daughter’s death last January, we had been talking about how lucky we had felt we had you as a doctor our first year as parents. I know you have many patients and parents who had feel the same way.
You referred us to Children’s Hosptial when my son was two weeks old for pyloric stenosis and he had surgery. During that first year, we realized how blessed we were to have a doctor who cared as much as you. I cannot adequately say how saddened I was for you and your family. I cannot say I understand, and I hope to never understand your loss, but you always continue to be in my prayers. Christopher (my son) and I will go pick out a book to send to you in Cameron’s honor. I think that is such a nice tribute.
I will continue to pray for your family especially during this difficult weekend that just passed.
Kristi, Mike, and Christopher Sanders
May 14th, 2007 at 7:32 pm
Derrick and Susan-
What a wonderful way to honor sweet Cameron-with books. I think about you guys often and can’t imagine how you feel every single day. Hope you are doing well and we’d love to see you.
May 17th, 2007 at 7:33 pm
Susan,
It was so awesome to see you all the other day. But I can’t even imagine how hard it was for you all. Susan you are the most amazing person I have ever known. I thank God for letting me meet you and your beautiful family. I think about you guys often. I love this website, it is also so amazing. Your new baby girl is so beautiful, just like all the rest of your girls. God Bless you and your family. Love Sincerely, Crystal Johnson
May 18th, 2007 at 7:07 am
Dr. Averitt,
I’m so glad to finanlly get to hear how you are doing. I think about you often and I always keep your family in my prayers. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this has been on you, but keep your faith and God will help you through this. I miss you so much and there will never be another Dr. that will ever compare to you. You were such a blessing in ours lives, and I will alway remember you. Please keep in touch. This is a beautiful and wonderful website you have started. We will definately get involved. God bless you and your family.
Love always, Ashlee Johnson